It's been a while and I've been neglecting my blog. We had a wonderful Thanksgiving! My parents were in PA visiting my grandpa and Stephen's parents are in MN for work so we had Thanksgiving dinner at my Aunt and Uncle's house. It was a lot of fun just relaxing and spending time as a family! We had lots of things to celebrate and be thankful for! God is good!
The past couple Sunday's God has really laid a lot on my heart. I've been wanting to share them here but the fear of being so open is kinda scary. I mean how do I know who really reads this thing. I know a few people...but who else lingers in the shadows for me to bear my soul to. But I suppose if it's something that can help someone else then I should just be open and honest. So warning complete honesty coming! Read on if you wish!
Since I was a little girl I've wanted to be a mom. I've dreamed of the day! Isaac is now 16 months and is truly a blessing to us. I would not trade all the money in the world to change one day of the life we've lived so far! We are blessed with far more then money, we have each other and are able to spend time together loving each other! I couldn't ask for more! But I have, I have felt lost and have felt like I've lost my identity. I'm no longer Charissa who works at the Embassy Suites in the Sales and Catering Department. Who goes to work and goofs around with her co-workers trying to make them laugh on a stressful day. I'm now Charissa, mother of 1 and wife to Stephen, cleaner of the house, doer of the laundry, dinner makes. I feel as though I've lost a part of myself. Sure I work at the bakery 4 hours a day but it's different. So the Sunday before last God whispered ever so sweetly in my ear. "I know you, I know your identity! It's in me and it always has been, you are the same today as you were yesterday! I know you!" As simple as it sounds it was exactly what I needed to hear! I don't need to worry about anything HE knows me! For all you stay at home moms out there, yes it's a job that have far to few thank yous and far less pay in terms of money! But we are shaping who our children are! We are making people who will go out into the world and make a difference. I may be paid in hugs these days, but I wouldn't trade a minute of it, ok maybe a minute when he's screaming at the top of his lungs and won't nap!!! :)
Then this past Sunday God spoke to me again. There is a song we've been singing at church called "Today is the Day" by Lincoln Brewster. I love this song.
I’m casting my cares aside
I’m leaving my past behind
I’m setting my heart and mind on You Jesus
I’m reaching my hand to Yours
Believing there’s so much more
Knowing that all You have in store for me is good Is good
Chorus: Today is the day
You have made
I will rejoice and be glad in it
Today is the day
You have made
I will rejoice and be glad in it
And I won’t worry about tomorrow
I’m trusting in what You say Today is the day
Today is the day
I putting my fears aside
I’m leaving my doubts behind
I’m giving my hopes and dreams to You Jesus
I’m reaching my hand to Yours
Believing there’s so much more
Knowing that all You have in store for me is good Is good
If only you knew how much I needed to hear this! A lot of times I worry so much about how people are judging mine and Stephen's decisions, even though we search for God's wisdom every step of the way! Thankfully I don't have to worry! He's got it all taken care of and all we have to worry about is God's view of us and what He wants for us! That all He has in store for us is good! Praise God for his goodness!!! The road may not be easy but God NEVER promised for things to be easy!
